The beginning of my text it will be an outflow but I promise by the middle or end it will make sense.
All my life I had/have people doubting of the potential of my dreams. Starting of course from my family. I didn't have emotional or financial support to pursuit what I want to be or do. Its understandable...sometimes the parents want a brilliant and secured future for their children and their children dreams are just...lets say not good enough. When I was a young teen I enjoyed dancing. I was not great or the best in my school but I liked. My mom didn't believe that I could make a future out of it so I had to painfully quit my school dance. She wanted me to study for a college degree. She wanted me to be a doctor, a lawyer, a dentist or whatever sounds appropriate in the eyes of the society. I remember that the only pleasurable feeling after dancing I had that resonated with me was when I was traveling, camping and being in the nature. But to travel you need money somehow. So I met some "hippie friends" they taught me how to make jewelry on the street. So I started making jewelry, selling on the street in Rio and to friends. Again I was criticized by family, by friends and other people, because I was acting like a homeless hippie girl. (I didn't give a fuck - 17 years old me)
I started traveling my whole country and it was great. Nothing it will pay the experience of what I did. I decided to go to college, but to study Tourism because you know why. For my family it was better than nothing. I continued with my travels, selling jewelry and being myself.
I got to work with tourism and it was really stressful/fun times. One day (some years after college) I got an invitation from a friend to do some dance work for a TV program, I remember she said she really needed someone that looks like me, because the girl was suppose to do it got sick...Anyway I said ok. It was really cool to be in contact with dance and dancers again. There I met another girl that her job was to dance and travel, then I though wowww thats the dream job. We exchange contacts, she referred me to the company, I exchange materials with them and then I had airplane ticket and permission to work in USA in my mail just like that.
Then again some people didn't believed in me. Because I was not dancing for a long time, I was not considered professional dancer, I did not speak english well, I didn't have friends there etc ( I will be fine - 24 years old me) I didn't give up because it was really exciting to say no. I went, I met wonderful people, I danced, I rides elephants in the circus, I travelled most of all states of USA and I was myself. I ended up there for 7 years. No regrets.
During my ups and downs I found yoga. I was thirst to learn more than the physical aspects of the practice. I invested some money for the Yoga Teaching Training course there. Again people around me though it was unnecessary, waist of money and time. I was doing for myself, not envisioning to be a yoga teacher in the future and make money out of it. I decide to do it because I really felt I need to love me better and that was a gift from me to Me.
After a while I started teaching because it was fulfilling. I found my practice, I found my guru and teachers to continue to inspire my path. I decided to dedicate my life to the studies of Ashtanga yoga and you know again I get " you will be doing the same thing everyday, you will get injuries or is too difficult etc...
I did not give up on my practice because I felt my whole heart in it. Thats the point. You need to find your heart in something to brings to you life purpose. Even in Mysore, India (Ashtanga yoga birthplace) I met people there practicing in the same Institute, that would skip classes for a run, bad mouth about the teacher (Sharath) skip led classes because it was hard and be there only for the external view for others, and to say yes I am a yoga teacher and I studied there but the truth inside it was No I am here only for my yoga teacher curriculum vitae. Unfortunately this person didn't enjoy the magic of surrendering to the teacher. Before I came to Poland also it was a big life decision. I had "people" that said I should not believe in love, not in my skills, that I would not be able to teach in english in Poland, I should not go because I don't speak the language and also Poland sucks, also I should not trust in men and I should not leave USA.
Don't let your dreams drawn into mud cause somebody else jealousy or frustrations.
And yes I came, Here I am. I trust myself, I trust in my truth and Im blessed because it comes from a place of love and surrendering.
Sorry for going on so long. What I want to say from the beginning is that don't let anyone rule your life, your feelings and your thoughts. Create a life you want to live in. Be whoever you wanna be. Live the deep dream you have inside your heart. Use your gift to uplift others. If you don't know your gift maybe its time to find out. But don't be something, don't be somewhere just cause! You are so special, so unique, nothing can be waisted in uncertain and pains. Believe you can do it and move from a place of love, respect and non attachment. Shine bright as 10.000 suns.
Namaste.
All my life I had/have people doubting of the potential of my dreams. Starting of course from my family. I didn't have emotional or financial support to pursuit what I want to be or do. Its understandable...sometimes the parents want a brilliant and secured future for their children and their children dreams are just...lets say not good enough. When I was a young teen I enjoyed dancing. I was not great or the best in my school but I liked. My mom didn't believe that I could make a future out of it so I had to painfully quit my school dance. She wanted me to study for a college degree. She wanted me to be a doctor, a lawyer, a dentist or whatever sounds appropriate in the eyes of the society. I remember that the only pleasurable feeling after dancing I had that resonated with me was when I was traveling, camping and being in the nature. But to travel you need money somehow. So I met some "hippie friends" they taught me how to make jewelry on the street. So I started making jewelry, selling on the street in Rio and to friends. Again I was criticized by family, by friends and other people, because I was acting like a homeless hippie girl. (I didn't give a fuck - 17 years old me)
I started traveling my whole country and it was great. Nothing it will pay the experience of what I did. I decided to go to college, but to study Tourism because you know why. For my family it was better than nothing. I continued with my travels, selling jewelry and being myself.
I got to work with tourism and it was really stressful/fun times. One day (some years after college) I got an invitation from a friend to do some dance work for a TV program, I remember she said she really needed someone that looks like me, because the girl was suppose to do it got sick...Anyway I said ok. It was really cool to be in contact with dance and dancers again. There I met another girl that her job was to dance and travel, then I though wowww thats the dream job. We exchange contacts, she referred me to the company, I exchange materials with them and then I had airplane ticket and permission to work in USA in my mail just like that.
Then again some people didn't believed in me. Because I was not dancing for a long time, I was not considered professional dancer, I did not speak english well, I didn't have friends there etc ( I will be fine - 24 years old me) I didn't give up because it was really exciting to say no. I went, I met wonderful people, I danced, I rides elephants in the circus, I travelled most of all states of USA and I was myself. I ended up there for 7 years. No regrets.
During my ups and downs I found yoga. I was thirst to learn more than the physical aspects of the practice. I invested some money for the Yoga Teaching Training course there. Again people around me though it was unnecessary, waist of money and time. I was doing for myself, not envisioning to be a yoga teacher in the future and make money out of it. I decide to do it because I really felt I need to love me better and that was a gift from me to Me.
After a while I started teaching because it was fulfilling. I found my practice, I found my guru and teachers to continue to inspire my path. I decided to dedicate my life to the studies of Ashtanga yoga and you know again I get " you will be doing the same thing everyday, you will get injuries or is too difficult etc...
I did not give up on my practice because I felt my whole heart in it. Thats the point. You need to find your heart in something to brings to you life purpose. Even in Mysore, India (Ashtanga yoga birthplace) I met people there practicing in the same Institute, that would skip classes for a run, bad mouth about the teacher (Sharath) skip led classes because it was hard and be there only for the external view for others, and to say yes I am a yoga teacher and I studied there but the truth inside it was No I am here only for my yoga teacher curriculum vitae. Unfortunately this person didn't enjoy the magic of surrendering to the teacher. Before I came to Poland also it was a big life decision. I had "people" that said I should not believe in love, not in my skills, that I would not be able to teach in english in Poland, I should not go because I don't speak the language and also Poland sucks, also I should not trust in men and I should not leave USA.
Don't let your dreams drawn into mud cause somebody else jealousy or frustrations.
And yes I came, Here I am. I trust myself, I trust in my truth and Im blessed because it comes from a place of love and surrendering.
Sorry for going on so long. What I want to say from the beginning is that don't let anyone rule your life, your feelings and your thoughts. Create a life you want to live in. Be whoever you wanna be. Live the deep dream you have inside your heart. Use your gift to uplift others. If you don't know your gift maybe its time to find out. But don't be something, don't be somewhere just cause! You are so special, so unique, nothing can be waisted in uncertain and pains. Believe you can do it and move from a place of love, respect and non attachment. Shine bright as 10.000 suns.
Namaste.
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